So this whole sickness thing…it’s kicking my rear. It doesn’t matter that I am a doctor, I have no idea how to take care of myself. I have n0 idea how to even begin looking at the cold/sinus aisle in any store. It certainly doesn’t help that the Hubs is all stressed out about what medications are appropriate should we actually get knocked up this cycle. Which is ridiculous. Seriously. Biologically, even if one of the swimmers won the race, the likelihood of it actually implanting at this point would basically be very close to 0. And it does not help that I really cannot take time off of work because we are such a busy practice and really can only function appropriately with 3 of us there unless there is plenty of warning for time off. This is definitely a situation where I wish I was still under the age of 18 and able to be taken care of by my mother. Way gross.
The only positive (gotta be glass 1/2 full, right?) is that I am definitely not even remotely concerned about how far past the IUI we are. Once the sickness hit hardcore, I haven’t even considered counting the days, let alone attempt to research when ladies experienced their first symptoms. I haven’t even thought about when I could theoretically test. I literally don’t care. That is awful but it is freeing in some aspects. When all one does is look at her life only as 28 day cycles and 2WW, it is nice to not be so focused on all that is IF. This being considered, I do find myself kinda sad that it took a wicked awful cold to knock a little bit of sense into my head. Yes we really, really would like to start a family. But no, our lives do not need to be completely dominated by that journey. We are still individuals with interests outside of starting a family. We are still a married couple that likes to go on adventures and see new things, and just live life. Sometimes (maybe even most times, these days) I think this IF journey has stolen that vitality from us as a unit. IF is such a sneaky little thief. I guess it’s a good thing that The Cold is much more nasty at this point.
All that being said, I am still very much thinking about all of the couples out there soon embarking on IUIs and FETs and IVFs…and everything else. My thoughts and prayers are with each of you, and my little toes are crossed!!