Well, I guess step 1 is done. I contacted our RE and discussed the details of scheduling our IUI. The entire scenario is incredibly simple, which makes me kinda nervous. We will be completing a stimulated cycle with Clomid either the end of December or for our January cycle. This particular cycle will be monitored with OPK, not ultrasound, with an IUI planned for the day following a positive LH surge. We just call in and say, holla, ready to go! and it’s booked. This December cycle may be slightly complicated because it does fall around January 1st, but the January cycle should be no problem.
But, monitoring and calling in is definitely not a problem…I am more than a little stressed that not having either bloodwork or ultrasound to monitor my cycle’s progression may lead to a procedure that will not fall on an optimal time. And it’s hard enough to ask for time off because of my professional commitments, not to mention how often we may have to request for specific, and very sudden, dates. I feel like such a jerk to even consider asking. But what are we to do? I am just trying to be super dedicated and work crazy hard to make up for these dates. I figure we will try at least 3 IUI cycles with OPKs, then move more advanced stimulated cycles later.
Additionally, I desperately just want this to work asap. I know we all do, cause this a long and terrible road regardless of how long we have been trekking. I am just so very afraid that the Hubs will be deployed or moved to Korea or something, and another year will go by, and we will still be right where we are now. Watching everyone else build families, watching babies grow. Did we do something to deserve this challenge in a past life? Prolly doesn’t help that I just feel so NEGATIVE about our chances right now…
I have to admit that AF is being her usual taunting self (see above pouting) and that is likely a big reason in my current funk. It doesn’t help that it looks like we are going to continue to reside in NM, with no hopes of a base change any time soon. And it for sure rubs some salt in the wounds when there are so many babies and pregnancies recently announced. One of our lovely staff members came in with her newborn today and I almost opted to leave in order to cry. In the middle of a surgery schedule. This was followed by being hit with a couple more military pregnancy announcements on FB. And I have been so short with the Hubs…I feel like such a selfish brat. I am so tired of hiding our whole infertility issues like we are somehow being punished.
That being said, I have found such a great group of ladies via blogs to vent to, and I have a truly great position, and I am mostly healthy ( I can’t wait for this Scarf Swap hosted by Stephanie @ http://www.theicingonourcake.com/ ) . Life is good, if I just breath and take the time to remember it.
Smile all out there!!!